I recently discovered this fabulous woman on Instagram…actually I think she may have found me first…and when I checked out her Instagram feed, I was so happy that she did find me. Her name is Rebecca and her feed is filled with words of kindness and an infectious confidence that you can’t help but feel equally great about yourself. This post was actually inspired by words she offered to one of her followers deep within a thread of comments. Yes, I was pulled in her by the beauty of this woman’s soul and could not pull myself away from reading all of the comments on her photographs. If you need to be uplifted today or any day, definitely follow her on Instagram @plussizeperfectwoman. I feel as if a great fortune has been dropped in my lap just by being able to witness what Rebecca does and how she does it. Rock on, beautiful lady!
And so, I have been inspired to write a post about confidence. Here’s the thing about confidence…it took me a lifetime to learn it…and I really want to share it…
…You have got to fake it until you make it. For real. I don’t believe that we are born with confidence. How could we be? We come into this world shriveled up little helpless dependent beings. Sure, people coo over us and tell us over and over how adorable we are. But as we grow and gain more exposure to the world outside of our protected home environment where we are praised continuously, the harsh reality of competition sets in. At that first moment of failure or ridicule or just someone being mean…WHAM!…any confidence we may have had is slammed down in one quick punch! Then we spend our lives trying to rebuild it. Years of attempting to regain just a tiny bit of confidence to get through the day. And we are knocked down and built up over and over and over again. Many of us are fortunate enough to have friends and family who help to build us up. But many times, we need to be responsible for building our confidence ourselves…alone in our defeat, we need to find ways to build ourselves back up again. And the one sure fire way that I have discovered to do this is FAKE IT!
It works like this: Put on your actress/actor hat and play the role of confident being. Stay in this role for as long as you need to. Eventually, you start to believe in yourself and believe that you have confidence. And in the end, you actually have confidence.
I struggled most of my life with “imposter syndrome.” No matter what role I was in, student, athlete, professional, wife, mother, I always felt like I was an imposter. Like I didn’t belong there because I simply wasn’t good enough. Who the hell did I think I was pretending to be something I wasn’t? I was definitely my own worst enemy. But I kept faking it anyway. I continued to feel like an imposter but I never really never let anyone else know. And eventually, over time, I started to believe in myself. Because imposter or not, I was doing the things that I didn’t believe that I could do. All the while doubting and disbelieving in myself, I still continued performing and succeeding. Then one day it dawned on me: wait a minute, I have been faking all along, or so I thought, but in reality I have been succeeding. And in the end, my self-confidence was born. In hindsight, it seems that I was the only person who didn’t believe in me anyway. Because even if I was faking, no one else knew that and they all thought I was legitimate.
I often hear people who are struggling or feeling defeated saying that they can’t do this thing or that thing is too difficult. And my response will always be: But you are already doing it. And whether or not you are doing it well, at least you are doing it. And if you keep doing it, you will eventually do it well. And more importantly, you will realize that you are more capable than you ever believed. And in the end, your self-confidence will be born.
So I leave you with this…thrive on strong people. Fight with all you’ve got. Uplift others if you see them struggling. And fake it ’til you make it.
Do any of you struggle with self-confidence or imposter syndrome? Know that you are not alone. Even some of the most successful people out there have struggled, for instance, Maya Angelou. And I bet many of them used the “fake it ’til you make it” method!
So in the meantime, I’m going to keep pretending that I am a legitimate blogger. I’m going to continue to fake it! Who’s with me?!
By the way, here is an outfit for you…since I like to show off my clothes! This is another one inspired by COTD Style…Colors of the Day were Seafoam Green and Dirt Brown.
After snapping a few pictures, I decided I needed to be just a tad less formal for the day, so I opened the cardigan and changed my shoes. I was much more comfortable in the ballet flats for running kids around all day!
Cardigan: Max Studio (but it’s about a million years old!)
Tank and Skirt: Target(both clearance items)
Leaf Brooch and long necklace: Kohl’s (both clearance items)
Sandals: Mudd Women’s Strappy High Sandals from Kohl’s
Black Ballet Flats: Payless (similar)
Faking it on the edge,
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