I am not the best subject to work with for any photographer for a number of reasons. I am super uncomfortable in front of the camera. I am no super model or even minor model, for that matter. I have no idea how to pose. I have never had any kind of training for being in front of a camera. I am so utterly awkward that it borders on the inane! Despite all of these idiosyncrasies of mine, my husband is getting pretty good at capturing decent photos of me! Like the ones in this post…But alas, the military has taken him away. Again!
This time he is only about 5 hours away from us, but it is for 7 weeks with really no days off for us to visit him or him to come home. And let me tell you, these summer days are long with two little boys and no break at the end of the day! But as my five year old said, ” Mommy, we got this. It’s only 40 days and Daddy was in Afghanistan for a hundred million days and we were fine!” Way to keep it in perspective, kid!
But no matter how many times he leaves, that first day that he is gone I find myself fighting back tears. All. Day. Long. When I set the coffee pot for one, I cry. When I do that last load of laundry that has his clothes from the day before, more tears. When I give the kids dinner that first night in front of the television because I can’t bear to sit at the dinner table minus one, my eyes well up. When I get into bed alone that first night, you guessed it…crying.
But by the next day I have accepted my new routine of single parenting, the tears are in check, and I am stronger than I thought I could be. Then the kids and I generally cruise right through the days and nights like the champions of military life that we are!
But one thing I have learned through all of the separations and reunions is to feel the feels. No matter how unpleasant they are, especially that first day, I have to just allow my feelings to be my feelings. I need to give them their moment in time. Feelings that are not given their moment tend to turn into really ugly and vengeful emotions. So on day one of separation, I allow myself to mope around, to slack on my responsibilities, and to just try to relax knowing that the sadness will pass. And it will pass quicker if I just feel the feels.
Tank Top: Old Navy (No longer available, but this Long & Lean V-Neck Crepe Tunic in Dark Red is very similar.)
Jeans: White House Black Market (No longer available, but you can shop their jeans here.)
Kimono: I recently picked up this kimono for a super clearance price (of course), but for the life of me I can’t remember where I got it and there is no brand tag in it. Weird. Another mom brain moment, I suppose.
Sandals: Burlington Coat Factory (Brand: Rampage. From last year.)
Clutch: A gift from my friend, Amy, from Old Navy (No longer available, but they do have this adorable Faux-Leather Zip-Top Clutch which features a tassel zipper pull.)
Necklace: Kohl’s (Brand: Jennifer Lopez. From last year. All Jennifer Lopez necklaces are currently buy one, get one 1/2 off. Check those out here.)
Side note: As I was writing this post, my 3 year old brought a container of yogurt to me and said, “Mommy, we are going to keep this yogurt for Daddy when he comes home. I will put it on the table for him.” It took some convincing on my part to get said yogurt back into the refrigerator along with a lot of scientific explanation about the properties of dairy products and what happens if they are left out of refrigeration for 40 days. Daddy definitely would not want to eat that yogurt!
Feeling the feels and saving the yogurt on the edge,
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